Christmas Card Appeal

Hi everyone!

If you could read this post all the way through to the end that would be amazing.

It's nearly that time of year again when families and friends are gathering around to engage in the Christmas festivities, making love-filled memories and it's really got me thinking. There are a lot of people out there who don't get that option or who end up spending Christmas alone and I wanted to help make the holiday season a little bit easier by sending out cards to those who may not receive any, who fear that no one is thinking of them and who get really quite deflated/sad/depressed at this time of year. Having said that; I would also love to send out cards to all the fantastic people who I've become friends with over on Twitter and those who read my blog daily even when there's nothing new to read.

I would like you to do the following:

Either leave me your name and Twitter handle in the comments below OR email me at anxiouslymeblog@gmail.com saying that you have seen this post and would like a card.
This needs to be done by the 10th at the latest to make sure they arrive in time (physical cards).

I will be sending out physical cards as well as e-cards (these are cards that will be sent to your email address that may come as a link to an external site which you can then print out if you want) so those who do not wish to give out their address but still would like a card can receive one.

Unfortunately I do only have a limited amount of funds and cards so the first 15 who request a physical card will definitely receive one and the rest will be in the form of e-cards.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Anxiously Merry,

Me

xxx

YouTubers I Would Like to Meet

YouTubers I Would Like to Meet

Hi all!

Some of you know through reading my posts and maybe even my Tweets that a lot of the time, due to my depression and anxiety, I find it hard to leave my bedroom – and that’s on a good day. I can go downstairs and sit through a TV programme with my parents but that is my limit when other people are home. I have to know how long the programme is, though, so I can prepare myself. If I have to go out (appointments etc.) then I have to plan everything very meticulously. I have to know how I’m going to get there, when I need to leave, have my distraction techniques in my bag (phone & iPod) and how I’m getting home/when the bus is. Oh – and have the correct bus far if needed. If I’m going out with other people I need to know when they plan on being ready/are leaving so that I can be on time to leave with them or to meet them. It saves a lot of hassle and confusion and it also means that I have less of a chance for my physical symptoms of anxiety to get worse because, when they do, I have to go home.

When I feel at my worst, I can’t function at all so I put my phone away and I go to bed. This can last anywhere from a day to weeks on end so when that happens I just mindlessly watch TV until I feel better. Thanks to the technology of today I can watch Netflix and YouTube on my TV as well as Sky or DVDs so there’s always something to watch. My go-to when I feel bad is usually YouTube. There’s always a couple of new videos to watch in my subscription feed but I always end up going back and watching some older favourites on mine that I know have made me feel better in the past.

Today I thought I would write down a list of all the people I watch on YouTube that I would like to meet or just see perform live as their videos really help me to focus on something other than my illnesses and how I’m feeling.

YouTubers I Want to Meet/See Perform Live:

Jenna Marbles
Julien Solomita
Cristine (Simply Nailogical)
Lilly Singh (iisuperwomanii)
Rose & Rosie
The “Holy Trinity” –
Grace Helbig,
Hannah Hart
& Mamrie Hart
Tyler Oakley

Is there a YouTuber that you would love to meet or see on some sort of tour? Are there any that you would recommend meeting?

Anxiously,

Me

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Pet Peeves

Pet Peeves

Everyone gets annoyed. It’s a natural reaction. It can be over something little, something major or even a build-up of so many things over a period of time. Usually, for me, when I am stressed and/or sleep deprived I end up getting annoyed by the little things. It doesn’t help that I have misophonia which is sensitivity to selected sounds. I’ve compiled a list of the things that really get under my skin. I’ll put (M) next to the ones that are triggering to my misophonia.

1. People ending statements with a question mark. It just makes you sound unsure of yourself and if you’re not sure about what you’re saying then how can others trust your statement? For example, if someone writes “I had so much fun?” I end up thinking “did you or did you not have fun?” Are you sure you did have fun?

2. Messiness. If I am in a room I can’t concentrate or sleep if it is messy. As some of you may know; I have been known to tidy friends’ rooms when I’ve stayed over (with permission) but if that’s not possible I go home. It still grates on me, though, and I can’t stop thinking about it. I have spoken to mental health workers about this and have been told that I have obsessive compulsive tendencies brought on by stress and anxiety.

3. Open mouthed chewing/eating noisily. (M) When someone starts crunching down on food or smacking their lips it’s all I can hear. My brain tunes into it and seems to amplify the sound. My shoulders end up by my ears and it makes me want to cry. It drives me crazy and I have to remove myself from the room the person is in.

4. People touching me. I can’t stand being touched – even if it’s someone just putting their hand on my knee or putting their hands on my shoulders. Ideally I like people to ask if they can hug me/touch me for whatever reason (haircuts etc) and it’s all down to not feeling safe around people. If you read my Blogtober post about my experiences with bullying then you’ll probably have guessed that my fear of being touched stems from that.

5. Tinny music in public spaces. If you have headphones; use them. I guarantee no one else wants to hear whatever it is you’re listening to. (M)

There are loads more I could list but out of fear of boring you all or just seeming out of my mind for being triggered by the little things I will stop here.

Is there anything else that grates on you?

Anxiously,

Me

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